hello again
hello again, visitor. pardon me, it's been quite a while since i had written my thoughts out to you. i fought long and hard these past few months and for most of it i had been to weak and tired to write.
it had happened, my landlord kicked me and my father out last may. it happened so fast, in a day i had everything packed and i had to get out, we left nothing but dirt and suffering in that house.
i had made it out. by the grace of the universe, it had helped me find a home again, my father and i are in a home and i think we have finally settled into a routine.
it is in times of great grief and trouble that you find the brightest people. my friends -my true family- had not been quiet in letting me know that they were there for me. my closest friend, already a sister to me, made sure i was able to eat the month i moved in. every meal was delicious, almost as if she had cooked every meal she helped me purchase. there others as well who made sure i had somewhere to lean on. it was not an easy few months and for that i so glad have my friends.
frustratingly, or perhaps thankfully, i havent seen my mother here at all. its been months, perhaps close to a year since i have seen her in the flesh. i wonder if a narcissist like her ever feels shame for causing this homelessness scare. i wonder if she wishes she was a better mother.
i do not know her thoughts. i do not know her.
i am thankful for the people around me, money is still a struggle but we will start anew here in my new home.
welcome, visitor, to our new home.